cobalt900

I kind of completely forgot I've had a DA account for 10 years this year. It almost feels like forever ago I was on this site in my living room, trying to read down everything I could from the bunch of friends I've had. I always thought all of you were so creative either in drawing or writing, and I always felt like I had the coolest bunch around me. I kind of think I'm the only one still on here from the majority of groups, though I don't really use this account. It's more of just a time capsule. 

Either way, it's almost... soothing to think back on those times. Good or bad, this is where I got my start, where I figured out who I was, and where I seeded the likes and hobbies I have now.

Most of you have moved on, and nobody's going to be seeing this -- or probably even noticing I actually posted something. But that's okay, this is more for me than anything else. Even if you never see it, I thank all of you for shaping me into who I am now. Good or bad, I am here because of it. I hope all of you have had good lives, and have grown into the great people you were.

And for the people and friends I lost, either from distance, or they unfortunately passed on from this world, I miss you. I hope wherever you are, you're happy.

Thanks for putting up with me, and for being my friends. I will never forget you.

It's kind of just sitting here so I guess I'll get back into it sometime.

Black hole sun
Won't you Come?
And wash away the rain
Black hole sun
Won't you come?
Won't you come?

Hang my head
Drown my fear
Till you all just Disappear~

Black hole Sun
Won't you come?
And wash away the rain
Black hole sun
Won't you come?
Won't you come.

Awrrr just one hell of a slur of emotions just washed over me. Mostly content ones cause I listened to my boyfriend sleep for a couple hours, he's really cute when he snores <3

And then the ones about here, how long I left and how barren and different it feels now. So much has changed. Man This just all feels weird.

Black hole sun, don't you come?

Oh, and I'm going to start linking my song stuff in these journals cause DA still hasn't made song submitting possible. Quite stupid if you ask me, there's so much they're missing out on.

for those who want to hear what I've already done: www.furaffinity.net/user/colto…

Don't expect extravagant, professional recordings. It's just me and my guitar being recorded by my mediocre mic on one take to practice for live performance. but eh, it's better than nothing. 

Man. I was 13 years old when I first got on here. Everything that's happened over the years, man. All my friends, the people I met, the furry fandom. It's all come from here. And I just... left. Everything's changed so much. I lost touch with all of you and for that, I apologize. But here, at the very least, let me give you all an update of me.

I'm 19 years old now. Old enough to drink in Canada. I have a boyfriend of which I love very dearly (and am considering marrying within the next few years or so but shhh he doesn't know ~) I decided to go to college for audio engineering and production. I pursued my vocal abilities and guitar to do a little bit of solo stuff and I'm slowly starting to climb up that. I really hope I can go somewhere with it, it's when I'm truly at peace.

But all of you... well, all that's left. I feel like I'm the last survivor here. Everyone's either moved on or switched accounts or just got up and left. And it's... it's insane to think about it. I'm just thankful to have met you all, and to let you know that you all helped to shape me into this, into who I am today. Thank you so much, for everything.

And... I know you probably don't want to hear from me anymore, but... Jay. Jaymie. Hun, whatever I did, whatever I've done, I'm sorry. I think out of everyone whose just disappeared, I miss you the most. You were an incredible friend, and I hope maybe one day you and I could rekindle that. I hope wherever you are and whatever you're doing, you're happy, and you know what you're looking for.

I hope you're all well and happy, too <3 I think I'm going to start posting around here again, just to shake things up. I have a new reference for Cobalt and everything. Man, so much has changed.

those days go by, and we all start again <3 

I'm still around, things just aren't the same with old friends gone, but I'm still here ^^~