Alright... well after a recent conversation of which I will not be going into depth of, I think it's time I came out with it.
In Grade 5 to 8, I was bullied nearly every day, I was stabbed in the back, mocked and openly insulted and people who claimed to be my friends were actually trying to make fun of me. As a result, it affected my overall lifestyle. I found comfort in food, I have very little social skills, but the worst is probably my Paranoia.
See, because of all this, I have a serious paranoia. So serious in fact that I caused me to self inflict and attempt suicide nearly 8 times. In high school I'm starting to get over it, but I still slip up... A LOT. What my paranoia makes me think is that everyone is talking behind my back and secretly hates me. I never talk about it, I've never even told anyone about it. I'm too afraid people will look at me funny and laugh at me... yah, it's THAT bad. As a result, I may do things that make people upset, and I REALLY, REALLY don't mean It, I swear! I just... I don't know, I just feel like everyone has a hate agenda on me and It drives me mad, and makes me ULTRA defensive.
I can't bring myself to see a therapist because I don't want my parents to know about it. I know people won't account this for many things I've done, and will decide that this is a load of shit, and honestly I can't change that, but please, please don't hate me for it. I don't mean to be like that I just... well, you get the point.
Sta.sh
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